Interviews and Traumatic Experiences

Please read and complete my Interview Form and Interviews page BEFORE you contact me!

I love sharing info. I have done more by myself than any photographer ever! Everything you see online, prints, docs, whatever is due to MY work, MY skills, MY focus and my beyond broke finances.

IF you want to interview me, and I need YOUR help to spread the word, I do have requirements.

The following details a recent experience.

There’s more, but some behavior that is so gruesome I don’t feel safe sharing the abusive treatment. Some people are legendary for their egregious, horrendous, cruel, callous sociopathic behavior.

Saying you are sorry or throwing money my way never ever compensates for trauma that accompanies us forever.

This is NOT Punk Attitude! This is basic human decency. Which is foreign to too many people.

Even the crazy punks were kinder to each other and not as crazy as many today! BEHAVE or get outta my face!

I am so sorry to write this. Woke up from many nightmares.

I have a new motto: no new real life friends. NO ONE comes into my home. I explain or share my history to NO ONE in real life ever again.

In the last 3 or so years, I’ve met 4 potential friends cos of my pix. Men who claim they love my work and want to know more.

I shove aside my work for them. And they are all CRAZY!!

Selfish. Narcissistic. Autistic. ADD. Impulsive. Rude. Cruel.

I remember having fun during punk and everyone was so normal compared to now.

Someone interested in my archive wanted to record me for his new podcast recently.

I immediately asked if he has ADD. He said “Yes.”

I said “Then it’s going to be difficult. If you behave on the interview day by constantly interrupting me like the first day, it would not work out.”

Did not work out cos sick people LIE and LIE. They NEVER understand nor acknowledge the trauma and damage they cause.

They totally cannot relate to the suffering they cause.

He repeatedly behaved in a bullying, abusive, mean, cruel behavior while claiming he wasn’t meaning to do so, therefore he wasn’t harming me. 

I told him he was repeatedly gaslighting me. Made no difference.

AND worse of all, all are so convinced their behavior is just fine or a simple apology allows them to continue their abuse. So arrogant! So confident.

While I’m trying so hard to help people as they bulldoze over me. Repetitive pattern my whole life.

I told him so and I said I wouldn’t allow it. But I did, for far too long.

He has severe impulsivity ADD, with a total lack of empathy, cannot feel what others are feeling, cannot feel anything himself.

HE told me this. He is aware of his behavior.

Yet is baffled why he lost good jobs at entertainment companies. Baffled why I threw him out.

Had the nerve to BLAME me when he caused all the issue!

I spent 3 hours day after surgery and 4 hrs the next day dealing with him.

I patiently told him incredible punk history.

TRIED to show him photos and discuss notes that WE agreed I’d discuss. I spent time prepping it.

But he jumped around so much. Then MAD at me for taking so long NOT answering his questions!

(I will use these topics and pix in my club.)

I BEGGED and PLEADED with him to STOP INTERRUPTING ME! He promised ok, then did it again. And again.

WHY am I so patient with certifiably disturbed mentally ill men when all I want to do, per their request, is share cool info and pix?

He kept asking three different questions, one after the other, rat-a-tat-tat rapid succession while I was in the middle of answering yet another question.

I am mostly upset that I was SO patient with him!

Except he brought up some good questions. Felt nice to share. I live so much in my own head.

He didn’t even know where to correctly place the microphone.

When I finally got fed up with the wrong placement, which limited my movement and was literally in my face, I showed him where and how to place it.

I was talking to a wall.

I told him no one told me where to place lights.

He was so dense, so rudely stubborn when he refused to pay heed to my tips on where mics should go. I told him I’ve been interviewed and seen ppl being interviewed. Made no impression on him.

And last thing he said as he left was AGAIN blaming ME when HE ignored whatever I was saying.

I prepped by pulling photos to discuss, my fave songs and why and he IGNORED ALL THAT.

Insisted on trivial things that no one wants to know about.

He brought up NIRVANA which has NOTHING to do with the groups we agreed I’d discuss.

Nor is it relevant to punk.

And when trying to explain what Dee Dee Ramone said about 53rd and 3rd, this is what he interrupted me with:

“Where’s 53rd and 3rd?”

AFTER I REPEATEDLY said I hadn’t been to NY and I didn’t know it!

That was it. SEVEN hours of my busy life and he treated me like shit.

He is one sick man. Has awareness of his issues but REFUSES to even try to deal with it.

What is happening to men? They can’t hold a conversation, they want to know info then rudely don’t listen but demand I answer everything without giving me time and much is not even relevant.

He said he was taking me down paths the didn’t know!

He said he makes assumptions about things he doesn’t know.

HE SAID THAT!!

THEN STICKS with those assumptions and ARGUES with people who know better!

He also said the weirdest stuff about punk. And me.

I told him people would not put up with his way of interviewing them. So RUDE and heartless! But he doesn’t feel anything.

He pays NO mind to what ppl tell him. He told me that! Kinda bragged about it!

I wanted to be friends. I invested 7 hours to be betrayed, mistreated, bullied and verbally abused.

So I blocked him from phone and FB.

Gonna take a long time to recover.

I always want to be friendly, helpful, patient and informative.

But I must learn to recognize and RESPOND when I’m dealing with sick people.

He has a variety of psychosis. I looked it up and I know medicine! This is one of my lifelong passions.

I cannot believe I yet again believed that being patient and clear and setting boundaries would work.

I just won’t ever let anyone into my home. I’ll again retreat.

I just wanted a real world pal to hang with.

I’ll stick to my digital and print worlds.

Wish I were a drinking woman … the world’s a mess, it’s kiss or kill.

I don’t want to kill any of them. Just want to never ever fall into traps like that again.

NO ONE comes into my home or life ever again! Do not even ask!

(Unless you are a longtime pal HERE but honestly, I’m too traumatized to even go there yet.)

I posted the above text on Facebook. I was stunned so many were appalled and sympathetic to my experience. 

I was raised to be the good Jewish girl who pleased others, no matter how much it hurt me.

That’s just pure bullshit. Oh yes, my parents were physically and verbally abusive.

I only have a few years left, if I’m lucky. Give me a fucking break!

IF you can’t behave and treat others with respect, then fuck you. 

IF you will abide by a few rules, then I’ve a lot to share. I need HELP sharing info so people KNOW about this. 

All this history, my Punk Pioneers Photos and True Tall Tales, end with me soon.

I DO NOT have to do this! I do it for YOU! THIS IS HARD WORK!

So if you want to see and know more, then let’s talk.

Please read and complete my Interview Form BEFORE you contact me!

Thank you. We could have some fun or I could kick your ass to the curb. YOUR decision!

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Please read and complete my Interview Form BEFORE you contact me!

I love sharing info. I have done more by myself than any photographer ever! Everything you see online, prints, docs, whatever is due to MY work, MY skills, MY focus and my beyond broke finances.

IF you want to interview me, and I need YOUR help to spread the word, I do have requirements.

The following details a recent experience.

There’s more, but some behavior that is so gruesome I don’t feel safe sharing the abusive treatment. Some people are legendary for their egregious, horrendous, cruel, callous sociopathic behavior.

Saying you are sorry or throwing money my way never ever compensates for trauma that accompanies us forever.

This is NOT Punk Attitude! This is basic human decency. Which is foreign to too many people.

Even the crazy punks were kinder to each other and not as crazy as many today! BEHAVE or get outta my face!

I am so sorry to write this. Woke up from many nightmares.

I have a new motto: no new real life friends. NO ONE comes into my home. I explain or share my history to NO ONE in real life ever again.

In the last 3 or so years, I’ve met 4 potential friends cos of my pix. Men who claim they love my work and want to know more.

I shove aside my work for them. And they are all CRAZY!!

Selfish. Narcissistic. Autistic. ADD. Impulsive. Rude. Cruel.

I remember having fun during punk and everyone was so normal compared to now.

Someone interested in my archive wanted to record me for his new podcast recently.

I immediately asked if he has ADD. He said “Yes.”

I said “Then it’s going to be difficult. If you behave on the interview day by constantly interrupting me like the first day, it would not work out.”

Did not work out cos sick people LIE and LIE. They NEVER understand nor acknowledge the trauma and damage they cause.

They totally cannot relate to the suffering they cause.

He repeatedly behaved in a bullying, abusive, mean, cruel behavior while claiming he wasn’t meaning to do so, therefore he wasn’t harming me. 

I told him he was repeatedly gaslighting me. Made no difference.

AND worse of all, all are so convinced their behavior is just fine or a simple apology allows them to continue their abuse. So arrogant! So confident.

While I’m trying so hard to help people as they bulldoze over me. Repetitive pattern my whole life.

I told him so and I said I wouldn’t allow it. But I did, for far too long.

He has severe impulsivity ADD, with a total lack of empathy, cannot feel what others are feeling, cannot feel anything himself.

HE told me this. He is aware of his behavior.

Yet is baffled why he lost good jobs at entertainment companies. Baffled why I threw him out.

Had the nerve to BLAME me when he caused all the issue!

I spent 3 hours day after surgery and 4 hrs the next day dealing with him.

I patiently told him incredible punk history.

TRIED to show him photos and discuss notes that WE agreed I’d discuss. I spent time prepping it.

But he jumped around so much. Then MAD at me for taking so long NOT answering his questions!

(I will use these topics and pix in my club.)

I BEGGED and PLEADED with him to STOP INTERRUPTING ME! He promised ok, then did it again. And again.

WHY am I so patient with certifiably disturbed mentally ill men when all I want to do, per their request, is share cool info and pix?

He kept asking three different questions, one after the other, rat-a-tat-tat rapid succession while I was in the middle of answering yet another question.

I am mostly upset that I was SO patient with him!

Except he brought up some good questions. Felt nice to share. I live so much in my own head.

He didn’t even know where to correctly place the microphone.

When I finally got fed up with the wrong placement, which limited my movement and was literally in my face, I showed him where and how to place it.

I was talking to a wall.

I told him no one told me where to place lights.

He was so dense, so rudely stubborn when he refused to pay heed to my tips on where mics should go. I told him I’ve been interviewed and seen ppl being interviewed. Made no impression on him.

And last thing he said as he left was AGAIN blaming ME when HE ignored whatever I was saying.

I prepped by pulling photos to discuss, my fave songs and why and he IGNORED ALL THAT.

Insisted on trivial things that no one wants to know about.

He brought up NIRVANA which has NOTHING to do with the groups we agreed I’d discuss.

Nor is it relevant to punk.

And when trying to explain what Dee Dee Ramone said about 53rd and 3rd, this is what he interrupted me with:

“Where’s 53rd and 3rd?”

AFTER I REPEATEDLY said I hadn’t been to NY and I didn’t know it!

That was it. SEVEN hours of my busy life and he treated me like shit.

He is one sick man. Has awareness of his issues but REFUSES to even try to deal with it.

What is happening to men? They can’t hold a conversation, they want to know info then rudely don’t listen but demand I answer everything without giving me time and much is not even relevant.

He said he was taking me down paths the didn’t know!

He said he makes assumptions about things he doesn’t know.

HE SAID THAT!!

THEN STICKS with those assumptions and ARGUES with people who know better!

He also said the weirdest stuff about punk. And me.

I told him people would not put up with his way of interviewing them. So RUDE and heartless! But he doesn’t feel anything.

He pays NO mind to what ppl tell him. He told me that! Kinda bragged about it!

I wanted to be friends. I invested 7 hours to be betrayed, mistreated, bullied and verbally abused.

So I blocked him from phone and FB.

Gonna take a long time to recover.

I always want to be friendly, helpful, patient and informative.

But I must learn to recognize and RESPOND when I’m dealing with sick people.

He has a variety of psychosis. I looked it up and I know medicine! This is one of my lifelong passions.

I cannot believe I yet again believed that being patient and clear and setting boundaries would work.

I just won’t ever let anyone into my home. I’ll again retreat.

I just wanted a real world pal to hang with.

I’ll stick to my digital and print worlds.

Wish I were a drinking woman … the world’s a mess, it’s kiss or kill.

I don’t want to kill any of them. Just want to never ever fall into traps like that again.

NO ONE comes into my home or life ever again! Do not even ask!

(Unless you are a longtime pal HERE but honestly, I’m too traumatized to even go there yet.)

I posted the above text on Facebook. I was stunned so many were appalled and sympathetic to my experience. 

I was raised to be the good Jewish girl who pleased others, no matter how much it hurt me.

That’s just pure bullshit. Oh yes, my parents were physically and verbally abusive.

I only have a few years left, if I’m lucky. Give me a fucking break!

IF you can’t behave and treat others with respect, then fuck you. 

IF you will abide by a few rules, then I’ve a lot to share. I need HELP sharing info so people KNOW about this. 

All this history, my Punk Pioneers Photos and True Tall Tales, end with me soon.

I DO NOT have to do this! I do it for YOU! THIS IS HARD WORK!

So if you want to see and know more, then let’s talk.

Please read and complete my Interview Form BEFORE you contact me!

Thank you. We could have some fun or I could kick your ass to the curb. YOUR decision!